Guilt…

Most of my actions are driven by guilt. Or maybe that’s what I feel. No wonder I am so messed up… Guilt is such a negative emotion when one has no reason for it. I try to make my decisions rationally, logically with a calm mind. But somehow that doesn’t happen. Is it because I have such low self esteem that I need to doubt every single detail of my behaviour? Is my self image so blurred and poor? All colors of black. I don’t know what to do. I am no more the driver of my own mind.

My mind has become my enemy. Most of the time I feel like I’m riding a raging bull. It bucks and bows trying valiantly to unseat me, trample me under its heavy hooves. But I am holding onto my seat, by tooth and nails as required, up till now. Sometimes I win. Sometimes the bull wins. All I can do is get back into the seat again or at least try. And then try once more when there’s no reason for it. I will master the bull one day. This I solemnly swear.

Keep walking…

The Path…

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The dark path or the path towards light… It’s a choice… The path towards light is good, is right…. But the dark path – oh so tempting!

I resist the temptation…. Moment by moment…. A moment resisted is a moment conquered….

Keep resisting… Keep walking…

Keep Walking!

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This journey of life is about finding your “self” or the absence of it. Keeping walking!

Good and bad is a myth. There is only experience. Embrace it. Learn from it. Persevere. Evolve. Keep walking!

Transcendence…

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Afraid!
So afraid!
What are we so afraid about?

Scared!
So scared!
What are we so scared about?

Dare!
Dare not?
Why not dare to live our way?

Conform!
Conform ever?
Why conform to beliefs we don’t subscribe to?

Frog
And the well.
The story repeated ever and ever!

Jack
In the box.
Why not jump out of it for a sec?

Swim?
Swim against!
Upstream is the way to evolution.

Stand?
Stand alone!
Make your point loud and clear.

Fight!
Against the tide!
Lest we be washed up the shore like weed.

Struggle?
Struggle always!
Don’t become complacent and die!

Time!
Time flies.
Win this race against all costs.

End?
Beautiful end!
Keep the means true and pure.

Transcendence?
Radiant transcendence!
From ordinary life to a higher power.

Is there a God?

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What does it matter whether there is a God or not? So long as whatever you believe in comforts you when you need comfort, encourages and motivates you when you need courage and motivation, inspires you when you need inspiration, becomes a shoulder to cry on or a punching bag when you want to let out these feelings trapped inside you and last but not the least, brings you peace when you most need it Рis enough!