Far far away
A never place
No escape
Dark, dark landscape.
Twilight dreams
Stifled screams
Crushed essence
Stale fragrance.
Soulless villain
Slowly killin’
Suffocating voice
Inescapable choice.
Crucible wrought
Or mother’s sloth
Burned anew
Wroth renew.
Won’t spare I those who did this to me
I’ll avenge me like Hell’s Fury
Cross my path and I’ll kill thee
No rainbows lovely, dark, thirsty I be!
All the angels have flown away
I’ve had them driven away
I cared not if they were
’round to care for me
Safeguard my soul
From the devil of temptation
Dripping desires each ephemeral second
My immortal soul’s in trouble
Now that the angels have deserted me
I knew not of their heavenly presence
For only when they went away
Was I made aware of the fact.
Till then I thought I lived a charmed life
No struggle, no pain, no needless strife.
But now that the angels have all gone away
It’s just one endless, endless night
A giant vacuum, no end in sight.
Now that all angels have finally flown away…
Broken mirror
Shards galore
A million reflections
Whole no more.
Fractured identity
Confusion’s reign
A thousand splits
Unity to feign?
Personalities differ
Existence’s bane
Moods aswing
Mundane or sane?
Weighty issue
Crushed beneath
No Atlas mighty
No laurel wreath.
Struggle accustomed
Accustomed yearning
Infinite loop
Caught in the churning.
Drawing a blank each time I think of writing something…. If I lose this then there are only a few things left with me which are worth living for…. The bad dark is coming closer and closer today….is clinging too close to the surface….I wish to shoo it away but I am just too tired…wish someone could do it for me…take away the bad darkness and leave me in peace with the good, soothing darkness so that I could just draw it deep inside me, hide in it and relax and rejuvenate a little bit…sink deep in it….take a little break from the world around me…I need some “me” time…not going to get it any time soon…waiting for next week to come as soon as possible…going for a Vipassana retreat….it will be 10 days of total fun for me…lots of peace, silence and “me” time…. Patience, dear heart, patience…next week is not that far…
In the meanwhile…
Keep Walking…
Hello Darkness, dear friend
Lets fly away together to that special place
Where there’s just you and me
And no one and nothing to chase.
To take a pause from this life
From all the light oh-so-bright
My eyes water or are they tears
How to know now it is night.
That place in dreams that I go to
Whenever you are with me
Wildly attractive, darkly beautiful
Forever mine and yours to be.
That place that we call home
Darkness, old friend, let’s go together
As without you to lighten my path
She disappears from existence into the ether.
Darkness, my friend, do not ever leave me
In the flotsam and jetsam called this life
All my constants are so no more
You are the only that’s no strife.
When did I ever say I was sane? I accept my craziness. Sanity is overrated!
Day after day passes by
Bunched under the same grey sky.
Will the colour ever change?
Will I ever get the rainbow range?
Do I even wish for one?
When all is weighed, said and done.
Or am I destined for monochrome
Dogeared pages of a single tome.
Dreary dull, greying greyed
Opposite to the life I’d made.
The existence is bare now
To live some way, to live some how.
All the living I have to shun
To mingle, to play, to have some fun.
This is to be my penance for my deeds
A desolate carcass for the crows to feed.
Alas! Even the crows have deserted me!
They’ve fixed their sights on greener seas!
Now only am I truly abandoned
Life has departed, I’m shunned.
Again and again I wonder why
Is my destiny to try to cry.
No tears gather upon my lashes
‘Pon my skin, life’s whiplashes.
