Sinner…

Far far away

A never place

No escape

Dark, dark landscape.

Twilight dreams

Stifled screams

Crushed essence

Stale fragrance.

Soulless villain

Slowly killin’

Suffocating voice

Inescapable choice.

Crucible wrought

Or mother’s sloth

Burned anew

Wroth renew.

Won’t spare I those who did this to me

I’ll avenge me like Hell’s Fury

Cross my path and I’ll kill thee

No rainbows lovely, dark, thirsty I be!

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Feeling Lousy…

At loose ends. Don’t know what I feel about things. Don’t understand my own emotions. They are all so messed up, mixed up. Dunno what it is that I want. Just wanna go to sleep. And then sleep some more so that I don’t have to think.

I’m so miserable right now. It hurts so much I don’t know how to deal with it, how to breath through this pain. So, I go to my standard response of snapping at anyone who tries to have a normal conversation with me. It’s easy…the habit, the pattern, the mould. It’s difficult, almost near to impossible to break it. Why do I do this? I hurt people around me when I am in one of my moods. And I know that I am hurting them but I am unable to stop myself. And then I despise myself for it. And the pain increases and I can’t seem to either stop it or get a grip on it. The vicious circle continues.

Anyways, I have been rattling for long. It’s time I end this blog. It’s my curse to bear…

Keep Walking!

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This journey of life is about finding your “self” or the absence of it. Keeping walking!

Good and bad is a myth. There is only experience. Embrace it. Learn from it. Persevere. Evolve. Keep walking!