Truth…

Truth is a dicey thing and always uncomfortable…

Friendship…

Friendship – What a beautiful and annoying relationship it is! Comes with a thousand blessings and thousand pains of its own… And still it’s worth everything in this world…

Motivation…

Motivation can come from any unexpected source… So, friends, do not discount that graffiti on the sidewalk or the hurtful words of your so-called enemy… Whatever the source maybe, welcome motivation always. You never know when it may become your next great idea…

Keep walking…

Pondering…

Life…. It takes you in such myriad directions…. You never know where you gonna find yourself… Just that somehow you have reached someplace you never thought to find yourself in in the first place…

Complicated yet exhilarating it is… Full of ups and downs, highs and lows, times good and bad… Each leaves a mark on you and slowly, silently passes away…

All you can do is experience them as they pass you by, learn from them and move on with your life… Nothing more and nothing less…. There’s nothing else in your control… How do you try to control the strong undercurrents of swift flowing water? You can’t… So is life… All you can try to do is coexist with her symbiotically as she passes you by… That’s the best you can do… If not, then live parasitically on your life. Let things happen to you instead of making things happen in your life…

Keep walking….:D

The Struggle – II

Need a break from everything tonight…. Need a break from self…. Dunno what’s wrong…. Just that I’m too tired of it all today….. Wanna end it all…. But can’t….. And won’t…. That path leads to defeat and I’m no loser….. Have never lost and won’t be learning to anytime soon now…. I’m feeling so miserable right now but I dunno the reason behind it….

There’s this continuous pain, metaphysical pain that goes on and on and I don’t know how to tackle it. Courage is not the absence of fear. True courage is when you are shit scared and still you do your duty. True courage is doing your duty responsibly in the face of adversity.

Have been reading different blogs thinking they might help me more…..

Keep walking …

Sanity…

When did I ever say I was sane? I accept my craziness. Sanity is overrated!

Session 2…

Gearing up for second session with my doctor… She had given me a task to write all my thoughts, as in questions, that pop up in my brain down in a notebook. I have written three pages worthy questions and thoughts down. Dunno what she’s gonna do with them.

Am I gonna get some answers to the never ending questions I used to and still have? Will she give me a navigating device to travel through this maze called world a little easier? Will she provide certain solutions to my problems? I fervently hope so. Or will she make me walk the path and provide me enough hints and nudges to guide me along it? I certainly hope not as I am bound to get lost in the maze with or without the navigating device or even a guardian angel.

All these emotions bubbling inside me – I am still afloat though. Not yet drowning so that’s good.Fingers crossed and growing apprehensive by every moment…. Wonder what nugget of wisdom will tomorrow bring or will it even bring anything for me, to me?

Keep Walking…