Mindless…

Toxic brew

In my mind

Bubbling dark

One or few.

Noxious fumes

Taking control

Hijacking senses

Haziness looms.

Sharp pain

Scarring skin

Marring sanity

Hope’s bane.

Chemicals in

Chemicals out

Momentary lapse

Silenced din.

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Pondering…

Life…. It takes you in such myriad directions…. You never know where you gonna find yourself… Just that somehow you have reached someplace you never thought to find yourself in in the first place…

Complicated yet exhilarating it is… Full of ups and downs, highs and lows, times good and bad… Each leaves a mark on you and slowly, silently passes away…

All you can do is experience them as they pass you by, learn from them and move on with your life… Nothing more and nothing less…. There’s nothing else in your control… How do you try to control the strong undercurrents of swift flowing water? You can’t… So is life… All you can try to do is coexist with her symbiotically as she passes you by… That’s the best you can do… If not, then live parasitically on your life. Let things happen to you instead of making things happen in your life…

Keep walking….:D

Question…

Is it true that after a certain age you need someone? Or is it possible to have your cake and eat it too? I find myself pondering this question with increasing frequency nowadays yet I’m nowhere near enough to an answer, a revelation of sorts…

There’s also the fear of rejection from one as I have BPD… I wonder if the fear is justified…

Till then…

Keep Walking…

A Dream…

Somewhere out there

Like the age-yellowed pages

Of a much-read book

Is a love that you yearned for

A love that you deserve.

Like the journey of sun

Towards the evening

The sacrifice of night

Towards the dawn

There is one love

Waiting for you.

The insistence of the river

To flow down to the sea

The thundering of storm clouds

Bold declaration of ardour

In its own time

It will come to you.

So take a deep breath

Stay just another moment

Maybe at the next bend

In the road it’s waiting

With the sweetest hug

Or surprise o’er your shoulders.

Shining Star…

Shining Star

Alone you are

In the sky

Tell me please

Lonely ever you are?

I see you daily

From my window

Twinkling your smile

Bright despite city lights

Nothing gets you low.

Myriad celestial bodies

For your company

Other sister stars

To talk and laugh

Playful and funny.

You, I stare at

From my room at night

Find a bit of peace

Some solace at heart

You are my light.

Shining Star

Alone you are

Strong and fiery

Burning bright

Never lonely, no pain to mar.

Blessings…

Whenever the day feels extra heavy, remember to count the blessings you have in the form of people you have who love you unconditionally… Believe me, there are always those who love you just the way you are and that makes all the difference… Why struggle to earn the love and appreciation of those who would want to change even a hair on your body before offering the tiniest morsel of their regard to you… If someone wants you to change to love you then they are not worthy of having you in their lives…

Learn to love yourself…

Learn to value yourself…

Cursed…

I’m cursed to live a strange life… One full of ups and downs, highs and lows…I don’t know what to do about it so I keep living it in the hope that something better will come along…will happen…

I so wish for the cessation of this pain soon enough… Goodness knows where it comes from…

Till then I,

Keep Walking…